(I wish) I Woke Up Like This

We all know those people. The ones that practically skip out of bed in the morning. At 6AM when their internal alarm clock rings from the depths of their subconscious. They have run five miles, done 75 squats and 50 lunges, and had a nutritious high protein, low carb breakfast all before 7:30AM, when most of us trudge from our beds to our bathrooms as if there were hundred pound shackles bound to our feet.

Photo credit to the cool things Colleen Leddy has at her amazing bachelorette party.

After breakfast, this person sits down to spend an hour on their personal project. They are the writers, philosophers, entrepreneurs, makers, creators. The enlightened ones, if you will. They are the masters of their own lives. They had a dream at one point (and yes, MLK would also be considered one of these SSs), and are either on the very well paved path to achieving it, or in the midst of the surreal splendor of it.

For the luckiest, this one morning hour turns into many hours. They spend their day building the landscapes and skylines of their future.

All my life, I’ve tried to be a Self-Starter. I set goals for myself, and I achieve them momentarily. Writing every day for two weeks straight. Opting into initiatives like the 100-day program. Taking classes and feeling the rush of anticipation in the moments before, and the flood of satisfaction in the moments after. Enlivening characters I fall in love with, rooms I want to occupy, and storylines I want to share with everyone I possibly can.

I do it! And I love it! And then comes a moment when I stop. When the path to achieving my dreams becomes so convoluted, like a maze in the dark, in the middle of a large expanse of land, surrounded by nothingness. So even if I were to ever emerge, I’d only find another harrowing obstacle.

The self-starter has this same moment. When they stop and evaluate. But, these f**kers (excuse my French) just happen to be Eagle Scouts who know how to use the crap on the ground and friction to create a bright and fiery torch to light their way. They have to push through and persevere, too. Even though we might feel that by sheer will-power they can light-up the world.

So all you Self-Starters out there. Can you please take some time from being incredible, jealousy-inciting humans to give us all some advice on how in the world you do it?! Also, sorry I called you all f**kers (excuse my French, again). It comes from a place of love and admiration. Promise.

XX,

A

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On Making Choices

I found this quote on Mashable today. Now I don’t usually seek out life inspiration on Mashable. It’s generally reserved for updates on digital behaviors or stats on how many Millenials play Flappy Bird. But as I was skimming through my Facebook Newsfeed over my morning cup of coffee, I saw “In case you need them… 10 Mister Roger’s quotes to remember on bad days.”

My day hasn’t been bad per se, but couldn’t we all use a pick me up on a Tuesday morning?

Anyway, one of these Mister Roger’s quotes really stood out to me. It’s a feeling that’s been weighing heavy on my heart a lot these days.

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It’s glaringly obvious these days that there is time for very little outside of work (& secondarily wedding planning). I try and call my family every day (even for a few minutes), I hang out with my fiancé, eat some food, and sleep. A lot of what I envisioned for this year has already fallen to the wayside, but I’ve learned not to be too hard on myself. I’m trying and prioritizing the best I can!

So when we decided to get a dog, everyone’s opinions really hit me hard. Some people expressed their disagreement, and others, their concern. Some people asked us how we could be so irresponsible. Why were we choosing such a busy time in our lives to get a puppy?

My answer to them (and myself, because of course when the people you love are against something you’re doing, you experience a bit of cognitive dissonance), is because it feels right. Because we’re choosing to do this over other things. Because it’s coming from a deep sense of who we are! It’s something that we’ve always wanted and from the inside, looking out on our lives, it makes sense. Even if from the outside looking in, it doesn’t.

And this sentiment from Mr. Rogers is so inherent to everything we do, no matter what phase of life we’re in. Do we take time off after college to travel? Do we move to a far away city to fulfill what may be a pipedream? Do we quit our job because we hate it? Do we get married? Do we break up? Do we put our careers on the back-burner to raise a family?

People will always disagree and have something to say, but if your decision comes from “a deep sense of who you are,” how can you be wrong?

Love,

A